We all seek it and it is all around us.
As a highly sensitive person, I love just being in the natural aliveness around me.
Aliveness And Its Substitutes
I have a hard time with all the substitutes for aliveness: entertainment, overwork, war. They jangle my nerves. I do not like drama all that much – mostly because it does not ring true but also because it seems so escapist.
Drama is often a substitute for living. It is a great way to organize people and harness their energy for some purpose, necessary or not. When we opt for drama we give up the precious aliveness of space. I think it is a poor trade.
Drama As Loss
Whenever I am around drama I experience such a sense of loss. I feel the loss of a precious home. I feel the sullying of perfect silence. Perhaps I am simply not endowed with an effusive love of busyness because it often seems silly. Some people seem to love it.
Perhaps I just miss the joy of space.
Why Do We Need To Get Ahead?
I do not understand all of the getting ahead.
When you see that we are all part of the universal energy, then what is there to get ahead of? Or perhaps who? The minute you separate yourself from the universal energy, you essentially are operating from an adversarial mind and not embracing the whole. Then you are definitely creating drama and missing out on simple joy.
Animals know this. That is why the animal kingdom is sometimes smarter than we are. There is no one to get ahead of. We are all part of the universe. I know that that idea is considered naive by some, but it is really dangerous to think otherwise because when we do we are creating the adversity that we do not like. The human mind can be a blessing or a curse. The more we engage in competition and comparisons ,the more adversarial we are and the less we live in the peace of space.
So why get ahead when you can simply be in the luxurious silence of wholeness?
I Love To Just Be
I love to just be, it’s my favorite thing to do. I have to keep reminding myself not to turn it into an aspiration, though. Learning to just be is not easy. It has taken many years of meditation to begin to relax. Probably because I am so sensitive.
I have to remind myself that I do not have to fix everything, I do not need to be necessary or essential and then I can relax.
Sometimes I have trouble relaxing because I see so many things that need doing. Since I am sensitive the things undone can be a source of irritation and make it hard for me to relax. I keep at it though, because no matter how much I get done nothing makes me happier than just being in the universal silence.
Then I feel I am at home.