Self pity and grieving are very different. Self pity is the stuckness of despair. It can be a bitter feeling of longing for something you cannot have but need. Often what we want does not seem like too much to ask, which is why self pity can be so painful. Sometimes it feels like the end of the world.
Self Pity And The Loss Of The Self
Self pity can be very difficult to handle not only because it can be tied to our dreams but also because it can be tied to the expression of the good in ourselves and our natural drive toward self actualization. So when our dreams – even the simple ones – do not come true a part of us often loses its optimism and resilience. Self pity is often the loss of our idea of our best self.
Self pity is also funny in a way. No matter how worked up we get about how the world has done us wrong, and often it has, it always makes us feel worse. Whatever the problem is does not get better with self pity, so hurting ourselves or someone else never helps. Self pity can cause a lot of harm and often feels as if it simply adds to our loss.
Differences Between Self Pity And Grieving
Grieving is different. Grieving is about the loss of something or someone we have had. When we grieve we feel the absence of something that lived in our hearts and lives. Grieving is often about a passing of someone or something from our lives as a chapter ends and another begins.
Grieving is sad but does not come with the same desperation of self pity. Self pity can occur when we lose something we never had a chance to have. An example would be the person who lost their parents very early in life, and who feels sorry for themselves because their life has been such a struggle because not having parents does in fact make life more difficult. That experience is quantitatively and qualitatively different from the person who loses parents as an adult which causes grief but the loss is an ending. In the former case, the lost parents live in the imagination and in a dream; in the latter case, the lost parents live in experience and the heart.
Self pity and grief are both natural feelings. One is not more justified than the other. Self pity comes with a perception of damage to ourselves and our lives and the wistfulness of what might have been. Self pity is a hurt to our willingness to be a part of life in a positive way, because there is a feeling of not getting the chance at something. Often the reasons are beyond our control.
Grief can come at a more natural ending point of a phase of life or of a relationship. Grief accepts the transience of life and as such has a more graceful attitude toward change and loss. Grief has its pain but also its dignity.
Self pity and grief may be different but that does not mean that they are mutually exclusive. But grief at some point diminishes. Because self pity often comes with a lot of anger, it may not end until we let go of one dream and replace it with another. It can take a long time.
Handling Feelings Of Loss
We live in a culture with few skills for handling negative feelings. When our unhappy feelings are invalidated they go underground but are still there to be processed. When individuals cannot release those feelings, they may turn to “acceptable” forms of expressing their pain like alcohol and drugs. All feelings including negative ones run their natural course and need to be accepted. Here are a few techniques for providing for your self pity and grief feelings whether your companions in life accept your feelings or not:
- a journal can work wonders. Of course, it should remain private. I had one at one point, and scribbled my feelings in it which was a more energetic discharge of the feelings that also made my writing unintelligible. That worked for me!
- meditation will help and I highly recommend making time every day for meditation.
- embrace whatever you are grieving. Can you make a shrine that you spend time with to honor your feelings and loss?
- seek out a therapy group so that you can receive some compassionate care from others.
- do not relinquish your idea of your best self because you are going through a tough time. Often in our success driven society it can be hard to appreciate ourselves when we have a setback. Your best self may have nothing to do with fame or social approval. Framing your journey as part of a larger human story can make acceptance easier.
- good food and sleep are small acts of caring which do wonders. Try to care of yourself.